{Underneath the Stars.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

sorrow.

12:31 PM

it hurts.

but it's a test of faith.

I'll get through this storm

And come out stronger.

He'll never leave me

And His promises I cling on to

I know His will will still be done.

Labels: renewal

Sunday, March 28, 2010

1 week in Thailand, 3 weeks in NS

5:57 PM

wahhh

so fast..1 month has passed

Thailand mission trip has come..and gone. NS 3 weeks have passed

Serve graduation is this tuesday

I MISS ALOT OF PEOPLE

well

mission trip was awesome

love to do a long post on it. but that will have to wait

booking in soon =X

NS.

well, not that rosy after all

all my hard effort at trying to restore my health over the past 2 years have been wiped out by the diet, fitness regime, and lifestyle in the army

yep, my gastric is back, and bad.

it kinda sucks.

sometimes people thinks i'm trying to 'chao keng'

bt the pain is really unbearable

so as long as i face up to my own conscience, i'm fine with it

2 weeks ago, i met the highest ranked officer in tekong for a medical review interview

he offered to put me out of training as he was concerned about my gastric issues

but i declined him then

reason was i wanted to ensure i have already tried my best to bear with the pain before i put up the white flag

i think now is the time

i've tried my best

i've seen and felt and experience the same pain that immobilized me for a couple of minutes 2 years ago

i've felt my stomach walls bleed

and i've had that realy irritating belches due to gastric gases

gastricitis sucks. big time.

so that kinda sums up my first 3 weeks of ns

tried 2.4km runs..but fell out at the 2.0km mark after around 8 minutes plus of running

tried chin ups, saw my standard drop from 3 to 2 to 1 to 0

called family members and close, much loved friends each night

built bonds with my bunk mates

saw my relationship with God grow by leaps and bounds

Heard and saw and seen God speak to me in ways I cannot explain

Thinks I have already seen God's will in my life and the direction to take

So inspite of the gastric pain, many good things have come out of it

amen!

yesterday went to ACJC funfair fun-o-rama

met up witht he serveryucks peeps

most left by 2 plus though.

spent 2 hrs with brandon and issac and denise waiting for feebs and shay

fun fair was quite interesting though

nvr knew it could be so big

i'm scheduled to meet my gastricitis doctor tml

the sergeants have adviced me to ask to be put out of training

looks like down pes-ing is imminent

wonder when all my other gastric tests or xrays will be

i'm certainly not looking forward to the barium test, if i ever have to do it again =(

alrite

booking in later at 8pm

ciao civilian world tml morning =)

Labels: National Service, thailand mission trip